New Year!!!!

Whoot whoot!! LOL hella gayass moment haha. '09 is officially over at 12.00 tonight and '10 is here. It's funny how I just remembered everything that happened this year. Like from being in Philly last year around this time, summertime crusin', the drama, the fights, the love, new people, I mean mad shit happened this year. Plus what's good is that I kinda kept my New Years Resolution too. Lol. B3 duH g00D b0! !N DUh $cH00L LOL. I mean so far so good. I ain't stressin'....yet lol. I think 2010 is ganna be a good year though. I mean everything is fallin' into place good. One more year of school, around spring get my license, got my babygirl and just chill haha. I'm feelin' some road trips too. Maybe AC just for the beach lol. I haven't been there in forever. I miss it. Funnel cakes, the surroundings and vibe of it, even the old ass prostitutes at night get to me LMFAO. Well maybe not that, but still, it's fun haha. Well this new year is ganna pop. I like feel it you know? Like lfajkldfsjisfalksjfio. Only if Julissa stays with me ;[ it's ganna be hard though leaving. But summertime though right baby? We went from days, to weeks, and then is ganna come months and years ;] lol. Dam but anyways I wanna go see fireworks at Penns Landing like last year. It was hella nice but no ride. I kinda wanna go to Hershey Park to see the Big Kiss drop? I think that's whats it called ? Lol but either way I wanna spend it with Julissa. It'll be cute even if it's just for a minute. I'll start every new year with her. I'll stay with her for the rest of my life. That's my only resolution this year. Daam I gatta stop though cause all I talk about is me and her LMFAO. Sorry sorry sorry say no more LOL. I plan on getting wasted tonight though. I mean, New Years only come once a year LOL. Hopefully just hopefully haha. Some UV Green Apple is the way to go ;]. But anyways thats all I'm ganna write. I gatta shower and shit, get these crusties out my eyeeee LOL ;] xD :D =)

Happy New Years Everybody.

I Got What I Wanted For Christmas.

Christmas Break!!!! Well..it already started...and it's almost over. Huyyy. Honestly I can say this is the best Christmas Break ever and I still got a couple days left. It's been fun though...except the fact that Mickey Ds has been our chill spot every single day lol. Still fun though. Movies, mall and hanging with my baby ;]. Lancaster is boring as shit though LOL. Not much to do here, same shit over and over, its ok though, I got my baby haha. Well about me and my girl, things are going perfectly fine, except these lil bumps along the way, but its cool its cool right babe? Haha. Its just weird cause I never thought I'd fall for this girl as deep as I'm in now you know? In a good way though haha. I'm completely in love with her. Every day, every second, every moment I'm with her its something new. Everytime I just get addicted to her scent, look, touch, just everything. I guess you could say I'm head over heels? Lol. I love this feeling. And most important of all I love her, with all my heart and soul. Its just ganna suck cause I gatta leave, again. And this time we have to wait even longer like 5months I think? Its ganna be forever. But I can make it. I know I can do it forsure. Its just ganna be hard......hopefully not too hard. And hopefully nothing is ganna get in between. Hopefully nothing is ganna change. Just hopefully.  Hmmmmm. I even met her mom and saw her grandma LOL funny lol. I hope they like me though. I just don't wanna come off as "bad" or anything. I'm not that good with meeting oldheads lmao. They seem nice though. Exxceptttt her grandma. I don't think she likes me at all LOL its cool. I guess I just gatta wait for it though. Omg Jada!!! LOL she's hella adorable. She likes me too LMFAO "Gimme sum suggah!" LOL but besides meeting the usual Venessa, Melinda, random ass Jordan and all them I met some new people too. Kinda fun haha. But dam I kinda miss Joey and all them LMFAO we always talk about how were ganna hang and stuff and how I'm suppose to "hop on a track" but it never works lmao. Shit I always feel bad though you know? Idk I guess its just me. But ahem I heard someone doesn't like me cause I "lie"? About what though? Like I don't get it at all. I'm still trippin' about it! Like it just gets me so irked thinking about it.  I gatta stop lmao. It's nothing big. I just hope it doesn't get in the way of me and Julissa then were fine. Hmm dam it's 1.30 in the morning LOL lemme finish this off. I miss hanging in Philly. I miss some old friends. I miss my baby already and its only been like a couple of hours. I miss a lot of stuff. But I can't wait for 2010. New year new shit right? Well I'll continue this probably after break I'm too tired. I wanna dream lmao. Night. I Love You Julissa Loy <3 9.24.09

I'm addicted. Just tell me where to be.

Damn I rarely do these now-a-days. Gatta catch up shall we? Lol. Well life is revolving around keeping up with school, chillin' with the homeboys, fam and of course my lovely girlfriend. Welllllll I just got my progress report today. It's decent you know? 3 A's 2 B's 2 C's and a fucking E -___- like that just fucked up my day. I mean English and Trig I can catch up in honestly but an E? In CAD? I do all my work and shit but he calls my shit "careless" WOOOOOW. But then again it's only progress reports I don't wanna spazz out. Yet. Lol. But yeah it's been going pretty good actually, better than I thought it would be haha. It's pretty much the same shit but different day. Huyy, new friends? LOL I kinda like my random ass group of ours. I mean me, Ryan, Jared, Nick is the usual then just throw in some random ass people in there and we finna head out lmao. It's kinda cool actually like our own little "wolfpack" from The Hangover LMFAO! Hella funny though. We always talk about being garbage men or some weird ass shit that makes my day haha. Can't ask for a better group though haha. But I just wish I could keep in contact with all my long distance buddies. I miss the talks we had. And they were always there for me you know? And then now since everyone is busy including me, it's different. Sucks a lot. Hmmm well that's it about that on that haha. OH and they finna do something for my birthday too? LMFAO! It's like ganna be the gayest shit haha. I don't know though until I find out lol. Oh..yeah....speaking of that my birthday is on the 15th xD. Another year older though ;[ It's ganna suck. I mean I'm ALREADY turning 17 you know? Like I still remember when I turned 13 LOL Too fast too fast for me. But yeah my mom was planning to throw a party for me too. On Saturday? With like a whole bunch of old heads and shit so I can "get more money" LMFAO fuck outta here with that shit. Bettuh gimmy mah $$$ bish LOL but I doubt it. Greedy ass Asian people these days. Haha. Everything is straight with the fam though. Except my mom....she's been a mad bitch ever since I came back Thanksgiving Break? Like wow honestly. WOW. It's aight though I guess, it's not like I haven't been through that shit before. At least I got Kam sayin' Gucci LOL. Shit....can't wait til he grows up though haha. Well enough of all that haha. Let's get started on something new that I haven't been talking about much, like my babygirl ;). Lol she is AMAZING. Point, blank, period. Lol like she practically knows me by now. Even what I'm ganna say next and stuff blah LOL But we've been talking lately and everytime we do I just wanna like cry....I miss you so bad ;[ Like ahhhhhh even when I write about this it's getting to me. Like I just don't want her to loose feelings for me you know? Like yeah I know for a fact 100% it's ganna be hard as shit going through this. But pain is love and love is pain. I'd go through anything just to be with her. And I know she's willing to too. But still you know? I guess I'm just kinda scared. Like this love is too good to let go of. I just want her to stay cause she's better than the rest to me. Like I love her to death. She's my top priority. She's my everything now. My life. I'm in love with her. There's nothing much left to say. So I'm just ganna cut it off from here yeah? Lol sounds like hella emotional but yeah haha. I'm about to go do something else LOL but yeah. Fakes and two faces are out. Exs are out. Haters are out. So are the bitches and hoes. New me? About to be a new year? Let's spark haha. Nothing but the G.O.O.DLife from now on. Feel me? I'll hop back on this soon hopefully. Duece.

Would You Love Me?

So I haven't done a blog in awhile and actually found some free time to do one. Well I've been hella busy with school. Fml. Besides from chemistry, being all sweaty in gym, swagger jaggers, and fake ass friends, this year is going pretty good. It's actually fun this year I gatta say lol. I just need to step up my game a bit with school and then senior year here I come right? Lol. Well everything has been going pretty good to say the least. The sun is actually shining down on me for once. Things have been less stressful and more easy going for me. I'm pretty happy on how things are going. So far gone you know? Got good grades, new friends, just brand new. Well school is good. Outside life is going good. Sooooo I'm pretty much stumped on what to write. OHmahjeezus I hate when friends start to drift away without even realizing it you know? Especially close ones :[. It kinda hurts especially when you talk to them but it doesn't seem the same. I just wish keeping in contact is easier without the feeling that you barely know the person. Hopefully things will go back to how it was on that situation. I'm trying not to stress though you know? Hmm on this "rap game" of mine I'm suppose to collabe with Dannyboi, even though I only made one track LOL it hella sucked though plus I gatta redownload that shit. Huyyy. Oh yeah I seen Julissa on Oct. 24 <3 which was our 1 month anniversary so it turned it pretty good. Haha I had hella fun though. I hope she did too xD haha but that's pretty much it besides I met some pretty cool ass people too. Haha. I can't wait til I go back Thanksgiving break. Well ummmm I guess that's pretty much it for this hella late ass blog. Well I'ma go do something...hopefully? I'll get at these blogs when I get the time lol. Later. :]

"It's the one's that smoke blunts with ya"

"See ya picture, and now they wanna grab they gats and come try to get ya" - Notorious BIG

Funny how I can relate to most songs. It's like as if it was my life was the song itself. Feel me? Well the reason why I chose the quote is pretty obvious. A fake ass nigga. It's always the same shit that always confuse me. Whose real and whose not. Like I spent my whole life figuring out who would be there for me, either if I was in some shit, about to scrap, or just down for any reason. I know whose there for me, it's just the ones that say that their there for you, but then they turn their backs when you need them. Even if you just wanna chill. I hate that shit. But talk shit about me cause I lost respect for you? Talk shit cause you don't trust me? Nah nigga I don't trust you. I know the people that I trust and one of them isn't you. You seen me in some deep shit. I seen you through yours. But you just had to drift away, cause of people's words. Holy shit it get's me so pissed cause he's like an older brother to me you know? But I might as well stick with the original 3, even though were all seperated by distance. Ahhhh and fucking bitches who call you "besties" but they barely talk to you, fucking talk to you when your busy and start to bitch and say the dumbest motherfuckin' shit. Like "oh how will I die? Duh fiya? Deh burry? Dah shoot and stab at night?" Like shut the fuck up you FOB ass bitch and hop off my fucking dick. And you had to get your mediocre rapper of a boyfriend. Like he's ganna do something when he's all the way in Lousianna? Fuck out my life. Like does everybody hate on me for being happy? Does everyone who has to say shit envy me for some reason? The fact that I grew up from nothing into something? Haters haters haters. I just can't believe it was the ones that use to be so close to me. But if you finna make noise, spark it nigga.

Life scares me sometimes

So today was a pretty decent day I guess. I really didn't wanna go to school at all when I woke up, I was hella tired. Pretty funny cause I tried to skip with Bao by looking at him, but he wasn't getting the vibe. Plus it was his first day back after 2 straight weeks haha. So yeah everything was going good until Altman's. Oh my shit. This nigga sounds like a computer like he was made to bore you to death. Sometimes. Haha but today was one of those days lol. So I was knocked the hell out of his class. Blah blah blah well anyways 9th period, the end of the day. I got my progress reports from Firestone, but I thought that we had to go back to 1st period? But I guess not so it kinda surprised me a bit. Thank you Zeeezuss!! I got 3 B's and the rest A's with proficient in both my Math and Reading score for the 4Sight. I was hella cheesy LOL. But my mom was proud said she was ganna get me a credit card so I can cop shoes online LOLL <3 Love her to death. Shit fuck. Reminds me I didn't do the map for history! SHIT! Ahh. On to the next topic haha. Oh yeah. My cousin Linda just got a divorce with Tuan. My mom told me it's cause they didn't get along? Like what the fuck seriously? Out in public they would PDA like crazy and they both would have a smile on their face. Like they were a couple that I wanted to be like with someone. In a way, even though it sounds hella weird. But get the point? Mom told me that Tuan had anger issues and shit? Like wow. But I just feel bad for her cause I seen her grow up from this insecure little bitch to the most caring, hardworking mature woman. But I know she's strong and that she'll get back up. Even though she was in love. Hmm what else is there. Oh yeah so today I thought I was a sophmore again but came back to reality that I'm a junior...some shit right? I don't know though. I don't wanna grow up even though I know it's ganna hit me sooner or later. I guess I'm just scared of the real world you know? Like everything would be different, new people, new places, new everything, like you just been born. But ehhh haha. Still don't know what I wanna do though. Maybe it'll hit me one day lol just maybe. Besides all that there's really nothing else. Just flow with whatever comes at you right? Well I'ma try to get some sleep now, my eyes are like hella low. Night and sweetdreams ;]

Feel the vibe.

So finally Saturday is here. Coooooool beans. Finna go to Fright Night later, or at least the mall so I can cop my flannel and some new kicks. Besides that today was the Moon Festival, in Pittsburgh, which I did not know about until like Wednesday. Sucks I didn't go, I really wanted to, but theres always next year though right? I really wanted to go the one in Philly too, but then again I couldn't. Next year when I get my car and permit I'm ganna head out regardless. Uhhh hopefully I get to go out later, but I've been hella tired lately. I think I'm on my old man status haha. So besides that I've had the urge to listen to watch and learn choreo steps, watch break dancing videos and hella old school music. A Tribe Called Quest - Jazz. Hella sick, makes me wonder sometimes though how things change so quick. Like people for example. But anyways I've been doing research on finding choreo classes cause I really wanna take them. It's not like I can learn it by doing it myself, watching Youtube videos over and over. I don't learn like that haha. But anyways I found one called Pittsburgh Heat. I've heard of them and all and I guess they're good. But they just have to be hella far away from my house, and I just had to have no ride. Hopefully though right? But if not then I might as well learn it all on my own. Dance and music is something I really wanna get in to. It's my passion. I've tried writing too. But no mic....bummer. Well I guess this is it for now until I hope back on this. Hopefully I get to go to Fright Night tonight. Outtie.

Lemme dance all over your cast.

So today was one of my better days this week. Besides the blog I posted before this. Well first off, I got all A's in school nigga!!!! :D. LOL I feel hella good and I got a 100% on my history quiz? Hell yeah mo'fucka! Haha. Ok well besides school, I was talking to my baby last night. And oh my, like I'm not saying were not close but after what we talked about last night? Oh my lmfao it's not a bad thing or anything but it felt as if we gotten closer you know? She's hella adorable though haha. So besides all that good stuff, this weekend me Mark and Sean are ganna go watch Toy Story 1 & 2 in 3D lmfao! It's ganna be hell fun though. Hm hm hm hm hm I guess the sun is shining in my sky now huh? haha but yeah just a quick post up I guess? I just wanted to post something else, plus Euhan wants to get on. So I'ma work on my shit. I'll post one up when I actually have something to write about lol. Later for now yeah?

I see you in my nightmares.

So this week has been hell. Literally. Even still, so much shit is going on. Lemme spit it yeah? Well let's start it off about my wonderful ex. She's pretty much a fucking bitch now. You promised to still be friends? I forgot about it and all the shit we made together. Fuck everything about her, playing with my heart though? Your pretty fucking low. And she knows me pretty good. Or I'm I wrong and she just used me for shit. Telling me I sound like a fucking chick cause I vent to much? At least I'm not holding shit inside which causes other people's downfall. At least I actually have people I can trust, rather than finding new people and calling them "family" right on the spot. I know why you do, cause you like them but their takin' by your so called "best-friend". So you call them your brother. Pathetic ass. Saying you love me a day before you break-up with me? Fuck outta here with that bullshit. I found someone new and I'm happy with it. Not only that but I actually have friends I can go to when I'm down. I can't believe I'm writing this shit about you though. I'm just fucking trippin' cause I'm "emotional" from what you said. You actually called me a lot of things which makes me wonder who the hell were you really. Telling me if you was my family you'd know why you hate me too? Telling me I'm ganna be nothing but a bum in the streets? Telling me I'm not even ganna have a name that's worthy of saying? But watch I prove you wrong. Bitch just look at me now. I'm living the goodlife without you. I'm sick of reminencing about the past. I'm fucking done with you, but you still try and talk to me? Like do you miss me or something? Or do you just wanna use me again? I hope you read this too cause I know you be hackin' onto my shit and looking at my stuff. I'm not that slow for a kid you know. But maybe you are. I'm just happy your gone out of my life. Thanks for all the tears. And thanks for the memories. I hate you, with a passion.

Typical Tuesday.

Yo yo yo. So let's start off with my day shall we? It's about 6.56 and it's hella cold!! Feels like the Ice-Age! But yeah lol well likeee for some reason school has been draggin'. First through ninth period seems to be like hours long and it takes forever to get through. But it's been ok though haha I got straight A's so far and I just got a 100% on my Trig test!!!1 Helll yeah!! Haha. Looks like I'ma prove you wrong right nigga? Hm besides school and the weather life has been hella gay. Besides my baby haha <3 but tell me how I have been up too nothing...-_- it's pretty much like last year. I would just come home sleep, do my homework, work out, and eat. AND THEN on the weekends hopefully go out. I guess homeboys don't wanna chill no more eh? Hella GAY! But oh well maybe soon right? I just hate staying inside this house. It's like hell. Mad boring too. Unless I'm dancing or actin' dumb with my lil brother LOL ahhh I have no life at this moment. Sad. Ugh and I've been like hella emotional LOL at times. It's like I got my own period or some shit. BOOBLAMPOW Hm I guess I'm done for tonight? Nothing much going on and that's all I can think of haha. OH SHIT I almost forgot ahaha well I MIGHT be going to this choreo class all the way out like.....to the east? I have no idea but I'm hella excited. And the Moon Fest is coming up soon too....and sadly I gatta take the PSAT on the same day...ahhh sucks butt. Well yeah that's all LOL hopefully I'll get better at writing these blogs xP. Well I'ma go shower and eat my chicken! And work out lol. Later for now ;]

Hey I'm the new kid on the block.

So sup sup? I'm kinda new to this blogger.com thing haha. But I decided to give it a chance, plus it gave me a chance to actually blog without it being on myspace. And that my baby has one too ;] haha. Hmmm haven't done this in a hella long time, so I guess I should start off with my day? Well I woke up hella early like 7 in the morning, but early bird catches the worm right? Lmao. Yeah but I had to go to work with my ma today UGH shit sucks, but it gets me paid. Money is my mind ;].....well I guess I can't say that anymore cause my baby is LOL :] I love you <3. Haha hmm well besides work I've been having Wendy's for like the past week -_- hella gay but their Frosty's are the shit!!! Well that was my day? Oh, I was knocked out in the back of the shop too LOL my ma told me all these old ladies were talking about me and stuff but oh well, got my rest for the day. Dam thinking about it now I gatta finish my workbook for the PSAT! I gatta take that shit on the.....shit.....-_- the 3rd? LOL I can't believe I forgot already. I'm screwed. Hm hm hm. Well let's talk about me and my baby :D. Well I love being with her. I can actually be myself and she understands me for who I am. Besides all that I'm loving every word she says and everything she does. But sadly she's living 4 hours away from me ;[. But it's only 4 hours right? I'm about to get my permit, I can mack it out there for a day a couple times a month. I can't wait though. I love being in her love. It's like a fairytale you know? Haha. Well I love her, but if I say anymore you might fall in love with her too xP. Just show me your heart and I'll give you mine baby. It's me and you against the world. Well enough of that lol. It's about 10.01 and I got work tomorrow again? Which is hella gay. Hmmm so I guess this is goodnight? I gatta wait for this loser to call me though. Well I'll post another one up soon, if I have time haha. Duece duece. Much love.