"It's the one's that smoke blunts with ya"

"See ya picture, and now they wanna grab they gats and come try to get ya" - Notorious BIG

Funny how I can relate to most songs. It's like as if it was my life was the song itself. Feel me? Well the reason why I chose the quote is pretty obvious. A fake ass nigga. It's always the same shit that always confuse me. Whose real and whose not. Like I spent my whole life figuring out who would be there for me, either if I was in some shit, about to scrap, or just down for any reason. I know whose there for me, it's just the ones that say that their there for you, but then they turn their backs when you need them. Even if you just wanna chill. I hate that shit. But talk shit about me cause I lost respect for you? Talk shit cause you don't trust me? Nah nigga I don't trust you. I know the people that I trust and one of them isn't you. You seen me in some deep shit. I seen you through yours. But you just had to drift away, cause of people's words. Holy shit it get's me so pissed cause he's like an older brother to me you know? But I might as well stick with the original 3, even though were all seperated by distance. Ahhhh and fucking bitches who call you "besties" but they barely talk to you, fucking talk to you when your busy and start to bitch and say the dumbest motherfuckin' shit. Like "oh how will I die? Duh fiya? Deh burry? Dah shoot and stab at night?" Like shut the fuck up you FOB ass bitch and hop off my fucking dick. And you had to get your mediocre rapper of a boyfriend. Like he's ganna do something when he's all the way in Lousianna? Fuck out my life. Like does everybody hate on me for being happy? Does everyone who has to say shit envy me for some reason? The fact that I grew up from nothing into something? Haters haters haters. I just can't believe it was the ones that use to be so close to me. But if you finna make noise, spark it nigga.

Life scares me sometimes

So today was a pretty decent day I guess. I really didn't wanna go to school at all when I woke up, I was hella tired. Pretty funny cause I tried to skip with Bao by looking at him, but he wasn't getting the vibe. Plus it was his first day back after 2 straight weeks haha. So yeah everything was going good until Altman's. Oh my shit. This nigga sounds like a computer like he was made to bore you to death. Sometimes. Haha but today was one of those days lol. So I was knocked the hell out of his class. Blah blah blah well anyways 9th period, the end of the day. I got my progress reports from Firestone, but I thought that we had to go back to 1st period? But I guess not so it kinda surprised me a bit. Thank you Zeeezuss!! I got 3 B's and the rest A's with proficient in both my Math and Reading score for the 4Sight. I was hella cheesy LOL. But my mom was proud said she was ganna get me a credit card so I can cop shoes online LOLL <3 Love her to death. Shit fuck. Reminds me I didn't do the map for history! SHIT! Ahh. On to the next topic haha. Oh yeah. My cousin Linda just got a divorce with Tuan. My mom told me it's cause they didn't get along? Like what the fuck seriously? Out in public they would PDA like crazy and they both would have a smile on their face. Like they were a couple that I wanted to be like with someone. In a way, even though it sounds hella weird. But get the point? Mom told me that Tuan had anger issues and shit? Like wow. But I just feel bad for her cause I seen her grow up from this insecure little bitch to the most caring, hardworking mature woman. But I know she's strong and that she'll get back up. Even though she was in love. Hmm what else is there. Oh yeah so today I thought I was a sophmore again but came back to reality that I'm a junior...some shit right? I don't know though. I don't wanna grow up even though I know it's ganna hit me sooner or later. I guess I'm just scared of the real world you know? Like everything would be different, new people, new places, new everything, like you just been born. But ehhh haha. Still don't know what I wanna do though. Maybe it'll hit me one day lol just maybe. Besides all that there's really nothing else. Just flow with whatever comes at you right? Well I'ma try to get some sleep now, my eyes are like hella low. Night and sweetdreams ;]

Feel the vibe.

So finally Saturday is here. Coooooool beans. Finna go to Fright Night later, or at least the mall so I can cop my flannel and some new kicks. Besides that today was the Moon Festival, in Pittsburgh, which I did not know about until like Wednesday. Sucks I didn't go, I really wanted to, but theres always next year though right? I really wanted to go the one in Philly too, but then again I couldn't. Next year when I get my car and permit I'm ganna head out regardless. Uhhh hopefully I get to go out later, but I've been hella tired lately. I think I'm on my old man status haha. So besides that I've had the urge to listen to watch and learn choreo steps, watch break dancing videos and hella old school music. A Tribe Called Quest - Jazz. Hella sick, makes me wonder sometimes though how things change so quick. Like people for example. But anyways I've been doing research on finding choreo classes cause I really wanna take them. It's not like I can learn it by doing it myself, watching Youtube videos over and over. I don't learn like that haha. But anyways I found one called Pittsburgh Heat. I've heard of them and all and I guess they're good. But they just have to be hella far away from my house, and I just had to have no ride. Hopefully though right? But if not then I might as well learn it all on my own. Dance and music is something I really wanna get in to. It's my passion. I've tried writing too. But no mic....bummer. Well I guess this is it for now until I hope back on this. Hopefully I get to go to Fright Night tonight. Outtie.

Lemme dance all over your cast.

So today was one of my better days this week. Besides the blog I posted before this. Well first off, I got all A's in school nigga!!!! :D. LOL I feel hella good and I got a 100% on my history quiz? Hell yeah mo'fucka! Haha. Ok well besides school, I was talking to my baby last night. And oh my, like I'm not saying were not close but after what we talked about last night? Oh my lmfao it's not a bad thing or anything but it felt as if we gotten closer you know? She's hella adorable though haha. So besides all that good stuff, this weekend me Mark and Sean are ganna go watch Toy Story 1 & 2 in 3D lmfao! It's ganna be hell fun though. Hm hm hm hm hm I guess the sun is shining in my sky now huh? haha but yeah just a quick post up I guess? I just wanted to post something else, plus Euhan wants to get on. So I'ma work on my shit. I'll post one up when I actually have something to write about lol. Later for now yeah?

I see you in my nightmares.

So this week has been hell. Literally. Even still, so much shit is going on. Lemme spit it yeah? Well let's start it off about my wonderful ex. She's pretty much a fucking bitch now. You promised to still be friends? I forgot about it and all the shit we made together. Fuck everything about her, playing with my heart though? Your pretty fucking low. And she knows me pretty good. Or I'm I wrong and she just used me for shit. Telling me I sound like a fucking chick cause I vent to much? At least I'm not holding shit inside which causes other people's downfall. At least I actually have people I can trust, rather than finding new people and calling them "family" right on the spot. I know why you do, cause you like them but their takin' by your so called "best-friend". So you call them your brother. Pathetic ass. Saying you love me a day before you break-up with me? Fuck outta here with that bullshit. I found someone new and I'm happy with it. Not only that but I actually have friends I can go to when I'm down. I can't believe I'm writing this shit about you though. I'm just fucking trippin' cause I'm "emotional" from what you said. You actually called me a lot of things which makes me wonder who the hell were you really. Telling me if you was my family you'd know why you hate me too? Telling me I'm ganna be nothing but a bum in the streets? Telling me I'm not even ganna have a name that's worthy of saying? But watch I prove you wrong. Bitch just look at me now. I'm living the goodlife without you. I'm sick of reminencing about the past. I'm fucking done with you, but you still try and talk to me? Like do you miss me or something? Or do you just wanna use me again? I hope you read this too cause I know you be hackin' onto my shit and looking at my stuff. I'm not that slow for a kid you know. But maybe you are. I'm just happy your gone out of my life. Thanks for all the tears. And thanks for the memories. I hate you, with a passion.