And that's what I'm aiming for basically. Like what it's a Saturday night and I don't wanna do anything at all. I just wanna chill you know? Like how it was back in those summer days. Chill and listen to everything around you, and just think. Past. Present. Future. Or have them deep talks with some friends. I don't think I wanna go out for awhile. I haven't been feelin' like myself ever since like.....last week? I don't I guess I'm just down cause I'm missing my baby so much. But ehhhh it's straight haha same ole same ole. But yeah 4 month anniversay in just 4 more hours haha. <3 I really can't believe we made it this far honestly. We're ganna have way more to come :]....I think I said that in my other blog? LOL oh well no one reads these anyways lmao. But yeah. Say Ahhhhhh LOL idk but yeah. I'll talk about me and my babygirl in some other post. I talk about her way to much lmao. But on to what I really wanted to write about. Reaching for my dreams. Remember how I said I wanted to do something with music? I really wanna reach for this shit. I mean I love writing to instrumentals that just catch my attention you know? Writing for hours or minutes, thinking of lines, freestyling, or whatever I just love doing it. To any type of beat. Rock, Hip-Hop, RnB, Techo freaking Daft-Punk anything haha. I just love the feeling of it and expressing whatever I gatta say on a beat you know? On a scale of 1-10. I give myself a 7 LOL not to be cocky or anything. I just like my shit feel me? But I hate my voice and how it sounds LMFAO like when I say it out loud to myself it sounds fucking perfect, but as soon as I spit it on the mic I sound monotone and dead LOL I think it's just the mic, but I'm not sure. I might really sound like that LMFAO. -___- geeehhyyyyy LOL. But it's just for fun and to paint my thoughts out. I ain't planning to go famous with it haha. Hm dam but being a DJ and playing non-stop music for clubs, hyping people up to dance, just being paid to party sounds like the life. That is my dream job and I wanna pursue it. Real shit. As for my friend Trevor he wants to do the same. Even though we have differences in style and music. But I think it'll turn out to be a beautiful friendship haha. But really I just wanna mix songs, scratch, just hype up the crowd. Like I'm thinking about it right now and its like I can just reach it, its right there to me. But then I'm kinda sketchy about it as my other shit haha. Photography will deff be happening. I love pictures and how things turn out the way they look you know? I just need a camera LMFAO. Shit I need a lot of stuff. But I'ma be something. I'm ganna be someone. I'ma make it. Haha. But shit I need like a real job on my mind. Like I'm finna go to Temple as well as half of my friends lmfao. But I might go to CCP for 2 years first? Or I might just go straight to Temple. It'll be the shit though. You know I love Philly ;] haha. But if I go to Temple or don't pursue my dream job. I'll probably go for computer engineering? But I'm still not sure. Like I wanna do something I would enjoy you know? Not sitting in some cubicle for hours, wasting my life in front of my own eyes. I just want enjoy life. To the fullest. With my babygirl of course. ;]. But I wanna get an apartment out there first before I start college you know? And a job -___-. Fuck LOL its ganna be some shit. Haha. But yeah. That's pretty much whats on my mind for tonight. Just patiently waiting.
To see my love.
To see my life in the future.
To pursue my dreams.
Just believe right?
Haha and I know it's a little early but I might not write one tomorrow.
So Happy 4 Month Anniversary Julissa <3 I love you baby ;D
I'll make all those lonely days up. Pinky Promise.
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